soundtrack

5:30 am - NPR. I have no idea what they're blabbing about but I want them to shut up.
Mid morning, around 10:30 - Dixie Chicks. Put on before shower and just kept them playing.  They are excellent for a toothache.
12:10 pm - OMW to the dentist.  It's the first time I've seen one in over 10 years.  I've been meditating, deep breathing, visualizing, taking ibuprofin. I notice my driving seems more defensive than usual but am fighting the fibro-fog. I'm actually listening to the radio at a volume higher than a baby's music box.  MIX101? Fresh105? I have no idea but it's okay, not bothering me.  I recognize most of the songs but have no idea what they were.  I arrive early and take a xanax in the parking garage and do some more breathing, keeping the radio on.
12: 35 pm - Anxiety building against the background noise of that blast from the past, dental office staple of "Brandy".  I'm pretty sure that played at my last dentist appt - and the one 10 years before that, and 10 years before that....I text my sister: "...Oh the pain."
1:something or other - Am in the dreaded chair sucking in nitro as if my life depended on it.  No music here, just the television which the uber business-like nurse had tuned to wife swap. Enough said. I asked them to turn it off.
2:00 pm? - Am OMW to the pharmacy, need an antibiotic.  The radio is on again but I don't notice it, I just want to get home.  I can't talk and am kind of freaked out that I actually did this.  I mean, it's the dentist......
Sometime after 3:00 pm to present - I remember getting in the door, peeling off my clothes and brace, and pulling on my soft stuff.  I grab some water, a swig of kiefer, I'd done drive-thru and gotten a chocolate shake.  I boot up my computer and send an email to MDM to please cx panda's appt.  I turn on my ipod, a huge playlist of a lot of my favorite older and indie songs that I created by accident.   Right now am listening to The Smiths, "How Soon Is Now", earlier it was a lot of Moody Blues. I'm so thankful to be home, and I'm Super-Thankful that my brandy is in the cabinet and not on my ipod.